Snapshots of the Heart

“Daddy.” I’m not so sure when I started saying that word or loving that being who was my dad. His sojourn with me was not the length of a novel or even a short story – more like a 5 stanza poem. He died before I started school at 5. It was not a tragic death, but he went through the veil before I really got to know him. Maybe this relationship with him inspired a love of mystery of poetry, song, and writing within me. I look back wistfully but thankful for the time he touched my life, we had happy moments, all too few.

I was barely able to read my new Golden Books when dad was informed by our family doctor that he had colon cancer. The conversations and experiences we had are more colored with emotions rather than articulate conversations that I can remember, so, my memories of our time together are more like snapshots. I can only mentally reconstruct our few conversations, especially those in the last few months of his life. Are these conversations real or not? I can only say they are stored in my heart where they are clear. The language of my heart being that of feeling and emotion, I believe.

There are several of these snapshots I can see clearly with the lens of my heart, in the silence, in this space between the lines. There is this one picture of him standing in front of the china cabinet in the dining room telling me something about when I would be grown up. It didn’t make sense at all to me, but I just took it in and didn’t raise any questions. I guessed somehow he was just expressing love, and anyways adults did a lot of things difficult to understand and made things I thought silly a little too serious. In addition to being my dad he was also an adult, so I didn’t question. There is another snapshot I recall of him in the hospital bed at Deaconess Hospital in Detroit. He is in a good mood, so I’m feeling hopeful – He will be back home soon. Everything will be okay again. I now see that he was good at covering up his deeper feelings and not expressing them. In that snapshot, he pointed to the dresser top drawer that was to my right, and said, “There’s a present in there for you.” It was a Hershey Bar.

Those are a couple of snapshots and a song from my heart that I share. They have great feeling and meaning to me.

The Song in My Heart

Here is the song in my heart
Here is the song in my soul
Here is a song that can heal
rhap-so-dy now –
– Richard MacKay

Author: richcreativemuse

I am a writer, poet, composer, and artist. Though I’m a senior, I’ve kept active physically, mentally, and spiritually. I have spent most of my life and resources supporting and empowering others. From living in diverse areas and cultures, I see life with an open heart and mind. I presently live in the Tennessee Valley in Northern Alabama. In my creative works, I would like to make a difference in our attitude toward the planet, seeing from a realistic spiritual viewpoint rather than the prevalent over materialistic emphasis in our society.

One thought on “Snapshots of the Heart”

  1. Got this last evening. I checked your blog and you posted the XXXX last evening but not sure why??? You are correct that on any other page your followers will not get a notification of new material ONLY on the blog page. This is set up as a blog so that is what will get sent to people that follow your blog. When you add a poem to the poetry page you could create a new blog post saying something like I just added this new poem and the link to take people there. Just a thought. Not sure how you could add a page and then it not be there unless you went back at some point without saving or publishing???? Let me know if any of this helps. I think there MAY be a way for you to have a list of poems on your poetry page and people can click on one they want to read and it will take them TO THAT POEM instead of searching for it below. I haven’t figured it out yet but if you are interested in this I will research it some more to figure out exactly how… See ya!!!!!!

    From: The Creative Muse-2016 Reply-To: The Creative Muse-2016 Date: Friday, May 6, 2016 at 10:59 PM To: Gordon Bruncz Subject: [New post] xxxxxxxxxx richcreativemuse posted: “xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx”

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s